This time of year is always a bit rough for me.
I lost both my mother and my father in December.
My birthday is coming up and I haven’t had a birthday celebration of any kind since I was ten years old. No one has bothered.
On top of all the facts, my depression has kicked into full gear. The “I feel invisible” kind of depression. The kind of depression that makes it hard to breathe, to speak…to do anything…Am I even here?
I miss my parents, my kids and my grandchildren so badly.
I want lights and decorations and a tree…I want to be able to shop for my grands..to send presents. Better yet, I want us all to be together. I want it to matter to them that I can’t be there…I’m not sure that it does.
I want to put up my little tree, put on some Christmas music and force the feeling to come…but I don’t think that it will.
So, I am going to make a rather odd request. A request that will sound strange maybe…but, I don’t care. I’m wondering if ya’ll would be willing to send me a Christmas card?
I know that I sound so pathetic right now..but, I just want SOMEONE to wish me a Merry Christmas (Happy Holidays)…I need encouragement so much right now. I am even going to post my address on here…because honestly? What does it matter if half the world knows where I live???
3901 Darien Hwy Apt D31
Brunswick, Ga. 31525